Sadness is when you feel like you are so hopeless, u failed to connect with your surroundings and everyone.
You tried to act cool but deep inside your emotions burst into million pieces of shards.
You collect all of yourself and try to make what is left of what you got.
And to be honest, it hurts, hurts so bad that you rather be with yourself rather than explaining yourself to others.
I am 29 and yet to find something that i can be goos at?
Anyone having the same issue?
You projected yourself to be a circle
You love yourself
You know that it is best to be that way.
Yet….
People presume that you should be a square
You must comply or you will be considered as weirdo
At times you change yourself, just for the sake of complying
Yet deep inside you know that you are a cirlce
You hate everything in you when you try to fool yourself
And you hope that people would understand……..
My heart cannot feel anything anymore
The advise was to just let go
It has been two years since you left, and yet your shadow still lingers
Was it because it was abrupt? The way you left?
The questions are still here
And i want your answers
Where are you?
To those who think that they can control you, tell them goodbye
To those who walk with you side by side, show them you are grateful
To those who hurt you, forgive them
For life is not forever and that what you give will get back to you.
Share your heart to someone who really cares
Given the fact that you tried your best and yet you fail… What should you do?
they shined brightly,
I envy them,
Through the darkest night,
So bright even after they’re long gone,
What moves you? What’s your purpose?
To shine with a purpose. To live and to enjoy life,
I wanted all that!
Maybe it is hard to admit it,
But the mistakes that i’ve made are somewhat huge.
Nothing fancy
Just me, trying to get by
I am lost
Living just for the sake of living
Drowning in my own miserable thoughts
Though i hope one day i’ll find a way
Till then, wish me well.
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